I would like to start today by piggy-backing on yesterday’s message. These 40 days are supposed to be about the process and I didn’t share the process of what I wrote…I just wrote what I felt led to write. So, let me back up.
On Sunday, I was struggling with contentment.
Ten years ago, God placed a dream in my heart.
TEN. Years. Ago.
It has yet to come to pass. Sometimes the enemy uses this to distract me and cause me to doubt. Sometimes, I don’t even need the devil’s help.
For ten years, I have laid my dream on the altar of God…only to pick it right back up, again. For years I tried to take a logical path to that dream. Doors would open for me to progress, but then suddenly, all doors would slam shut. I would lay my dream back down on the altar. Then another door would open. I would pick my dream back up and walk through that one. And just as I was finally feeling like I was getting somewhere, all of the doors would slam shut, again. My dream went back on the altar.
Over and over, this has continued for ten years.
It’s weird to live in a place of both joyful anticipation and a broken heart. I long for that dream to come true! It’s a good dream from a good, good Father! Sometimes, it feels like I am so full of hope that my heart will burst! But He, once again, reminds me that there is an appointed time for everything (Ecclesiastes 3:1-15). God’s thoughts are not my thoughts, neither are His ways my ways (Isaiah 55:8). Isaiah 55 continues on:
“For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts higher than your thoughts.
For as the rain and snow come down from heaven, and do not return there without watering the earth, making it bear and sprout, and providing seed to the sower and bread to the eater,
So will My word be which goes out of My mouth; it will not return to Me void (useless, without result), without accomplishing what I desire, and without succeeding in the matter for which I sent it.
For you will go out [from exile] with joy and be led forth [by the Lord Himself] with peace; the mountains and the hills will break forth into shouts of joy before you, and all the trees of the field will clap their hands.” v.9-12 AMP
He also reminded me:
A man’s mind plans his way [as he journeys through life], but the Lord directs his steps and establishes them. Proverbs 16:9 AMP (I spent some time in all of Proverbs 16.)
All I need to do is to stay focused on Him and, daily, renew my mind (Romans 12:2). I have to rely on Him to establish me wherever He needs me to be. Because when the LORD establishes something, it is immovable and unshakeable. But first and foremost, above all else, I must be rooted in righteousness…
No one can be established through wickedness, but the righteous cannot be uprooted. Proverbs 12:3
…and in love (1 Corinthians 13 – yes, the entire chapter)
I am also reminded that:
For the eyes of Yahweh roam throughout the earth to show Himself strong for those whose hearts are completely His. 2 Chronicles 16:9a HCSB
Even in my moments of weakness, He shows Himself faithful and strong. Oh, how He cares for us! I could barely keep up with Him as He reminded me of His promises, this morning! And He showed me something else.
As I was going back and forth through the Word, something kept popping up. I didn’t notice, at first, but I kept seeing it as I was searching and seeking. It was the word, “thirsty.”
“Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters;” Isaiah 55:1a
“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.” Matthew 5:6
“but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” John 4:14
On the last and greatest day of the Feast, Jesus stood and said in a loud voice, “If anyone is thirsty, let him come to Me and drink. Whoever believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him.” John 7:37-38
This thirst is a longing for spiritual fulfillment. This water can only be supplied by God, Himself. John 7 continues:
By this He meant the Spirit, whom those who believed in Him were later to receive. Up to that time the Spirit had not been given, since Jesus had not yet been glorified. v.39
When we accept Christ as our Savior, the Holy Spirit comes to reside in us. He reminds us of God’s promises; convicts us of sin; leads us to repentance; guides us into all truth. As we rely on His guidance, we become more and more like Christ, which means we become more and more like the person God created us to be…so that we can do what He created us to do.
And so I trust God. I trust Him with my salvation, with my life…and with the dream that He placed in my heart, long ago. And even if things don’t go the way I think they should (and they rarely ever do), I still have God and He is all I need. So, I leave my dream on the altar and wait for Him to give it back to me. I wait for Him…
All Scripture is NIV unless otherwise stated.